Er. >;/

Sarah shut your mouth about how joshua perets is expensive. Yeah sometimes but I usually get stuff on sale and who cares, it's my money to spend on what I love. Your jealous you always gotta shop cheap. It's nice to be able to buy whatever I want.


Ps. I hate this fucking cold. My head, nose, ears and body are in pain. Go away!

Just an update on things.

1: I made 2 more foam sticker gingerbread. haha love them.
2: found a place, where they got a light-med Blue and baby Pink, Real human hair clip on extensions for my hair.
going to get 2-6 more. (They're clip ons)
3: Sarah gave me a little crown & bling heart with a key hole center necklace & Gold heart hoops. which are better than the earrings I have.
4: I got a Green Dinosaur hoodie that the guy is holding a sign with 2 hearts saying free dino hugs.
5: I got my cav filled without drugs. It wasn't bad at all. Woot.
6: Have my new years eve outfit planned out already.
7. Ready for xmas, But I do need wrapping paper.
8. I've been playing with a few new simple eye looks for me with my new and some of my old make-up.

Omg The dollar store & xmas

We had really bad service at Dollarama yesterday, But I picked up some stuff to make gingerbread men and women for the xmas tree and Willow and Mary lou get one too! They all look cute. my fave is Baby Ginger.

Fav song & Dentist

♫ Are you listening Santa? I've been a good girl this year and There is only one thing I want. I want a boob job for xmas. Big ol' knockers out to here. ♪

 one of my fav xmas songs. haha it makes Chris go facepalm.

First time today getting a needle in my mouth, without being on drugs. Ahh :/
Luckily I have my bebe hand to hold through it.

12/07/11.

-1°C. Partly cloudy.  Feels like * -6

I am going to the library today, because our books are due, I doubt I'll take out another book but we'll see. We're going to have min steak, corn and mash potatoes for dinner. Yummy! :P

This weekkk.

Fun week. Going to the Doctors today and On the 8th the Dentist to get a small cavity filled :/.
At least I got my booties now, So I'll be bundled up❣

One yearr.

❤ нąppγ σлε γєαя ßεɞє. ❥
/(´•̮•`)\ (•¸•`)
./[ღ]\. ./[♥]\. ❣

I love him with all my heart, You're my everything and he has really been there for me.
Everyday I am thankful for having him as a partner, I am complete with you. 

Today, We're going to dress up a little & go out to Perkins. one of our fav resturants and I am going to have a piece of the Peanut Butter Silk Pie. Yum!

Dear Winter, bring us more snow. thanks

_███_ ❈ .。
˛.(´• ̮•) / ミ´¯`❄.¸(░)`

I want to play in the snow, make a snowman with my yuve and go Sledding with him and Ermin.

Nail polishes

I want more. I feel naked without any on. I barely have any nail polishes.
I got sally han for a 1.99$ Each at Rexall the other day.♡

Snowww.

We have snow today but less than 4 inches. maybe we'll get more today. I need a circle sled thingy to go play in the snow❣  ☃ ❈ ☃ ❈

Mary Louuu aka my Aunt

I'm glad she found me on facebook. We talk about alot and I really enjoy it. We talk in messenges or on chat everyday or night. I don't feel lonely when we talk, I hope to see her sometime in the future. hehe. She's bought me most of my DC white knee high winter booties. That was really sweet of her! I needed and wanted them. :)

New medication.

I am on a new medication called aripiprazole for anixety and mood.
But their is a side effect for about 3 weeks. leg issues. restless & tense.
I went to the hospital today because it was so annoying. the doctor gave me two T3,
I'm getting a small prescription tomorrow,
I am only taking it if gets bad like that again or worst. it helped quite a bit. not 100%.
I couldn't sit, stand, walk or lay down for long before.
I did manage to sleep a bit at night though.

I Miss You Flutterfly.

I thought of you with love today
but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday
and days before that too,
I think of you in silence
... I often speak your name
All I have are memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake
with which we’ll never part
God has you in His keeping
I have you in my heart. ❤

Yet another day to say,

It was suppose to be this way.

:(

Continue about Clonazepam, Day 6.

It's alot better. just a little bit of a shooken feeling still. and day 8 and 9 I feel like I should be shaking.

Tapering off of Clonazepam, It's been hell.

This is my third without any, I was told to take 3 at first, once when I wake up, one at 4 pm and the other at bedtime for 4 days, then 2 pills, one when I wake up and one at bedtime for 4 days, then 1 pill at bedtime for 4 days. then stop it. Never would I think I would start getting lots of sweating in the day and while I'm asleep. soaked in my own sweat most of the day and when I was asleep, it was so gross. First day/night without it, I didn't feel too bad. just sweating alot. It was the second day that I was shaking alot, my heart was beating alot in the day, worrying, feeling sick, achey. Yesterday I only woke up a little bit sweaty, shaken, still very anxious, worrying, depressed, can't  focus on much for long and this morning I didn't wake up in my own sweat, but I am feeling only a little bit less anxious than yesterday day and night, shaken quite a bit still, can't focus on much for a long time, pretty close to the same feeling as yesterday.

Ugh Hospital, Peoples and Sims.

I've been feeling overly stress, anixety and shit for the past year, so on the 23th I went to the hospital with my Bebe and waitied a few hours for help but I got too sleepy, I took my meds at ten o'clock, So I couldn't wait much longer once they kick in. then we decided to go the next day at 2 pm, because the walk in was closed that day. So we went to check in at the hospital, the nurse told us 2-4 hrs, well it turned into 13-hrs. ha what a joke trying to get help there. by the time I saw the doctor he told me 2 things I already know and he said talk to my family Doctor about somebody to talk too, Im thinking yeah I have done that. he said there wasn't anybody. so wtf am i suppose to do. hopefully next year I can see somebody, I am on a waiting list but i can't remember who I called for that. Lol. I got like 5 things of blood taken out of me, I felt a little dizzy. But he found nothing in my blood work. We tryed to eat at timmies, no food. Mc.donalds was close that morning for some odd reason. so we went to Mac's and bought something to eat.

I try to talk to David because he wanted our Sims to date on facebook but he doesn't answer me ever when he's online. I'm thinking about taking him off my list. because that is just rude and their seems to be no point of him being on my list anyways.
It's been close to 2 months and I still haven't seen a box. Willow says she will this month. Oh she better. this is just getting to be too much. James said he'd try to get to her too as well. he was kind of annoying saying how I am here for a vacation and my home is nanaimo. he doesn't know shit about that. Marie unblocks me and writes on Jeff's facebook wall,
OMG Jeff your new girl friend is sooooo fricking awesome, I love her, its so nice to finally see you happy and the fact tbat she's drickin hot ain't so bad either lol. That shows she wanted me to see and get hurt. haha, I don't care. Also she use to say that about me so. She's just childish.

It won't let me and Chris be Soulmates, We tryed so many times. no messenge in his inbox but something about it appears on his wall.

One of my top Youtubes I like.

She has a channel and make the littlest pet shop toy talk and act. She's good at it. I love it!
Savanna is the new popular dog.. Brook isn't the coolest cat around anymore. She's so last week.
Haha. Oh my dog!

HAPPY !!

Forever21 will be here in the beginning of Sept. I saw lots of stuff on the site I really like.

Will I see you again?

I took you for grantent cats.. I was looking for an easy way out and I left you 2 behind...I hate myself for this!

An outting.

Soo, I went to Subway yesterday with Chris and saw a little girl that looks like Rylan but with curly light brown hair, not blonde like him. Freaky! 
I wanted a littlest pet shop toy out of the machine and I got a white Chinchilla with big ears :)

NEW OPI !!

I'm so into OPI nail polishes !! My fav is Peach-A-Boo And from the Sephora line Go With The Flow-er. :)
New colors OPI releases its two new DS shades "DS Temptation" and "DS Bold" for the boldest purple & pinkish red. I'm so getting them.

I don't get her.

I told my sister I can't move back, for reasons before and yet. she's still at it.
I think being there would make it worst for me in many ways. I believe I can work on my goals here.
She should upload videos of the kiddies but she doesn't have the time. Bullshit.

Songs that I like listening to the most at the moment.

Spose - I'm awesome
TheLonelyIsland - I just had sex
Brad Paisley - If I could write a letter to me.

Blog changes, A sad change and Regular stuff,.

This is awesome, how I got to fix my blog the way I wanted it.
Also, Tiggy died at 1 am this morning. R.i.p ; ; You were loved and will be missed by many kitty.
Chris's Dad trying to pick a fight. Pointless because lots don't grow  up fully. I don't have to lend $. my past about lending money, has kind of taught me to be careful who you lend it out too and how much. I don't have to change. He's being an ass. I speak my mind!

Fashion of the day! !

Fushia Pink V-Neck top, it says You fill my heart with sunshine with a Baby Pink sun behind the letters. On my first ear piercing I'm wearing dangling Barbie earrings, On my 2nd ear pierced hole. Butterfly diamond studs, I clipped back one side of my hair with a Baby Pink Hello Kitty pin and some Dark blue skinnys.
On my face, I'm wearing mineral power cover-Up, Coral brush, The Blackest Black Mascara & Expensive Pink Eyeshadow from Mac. :)

I can't believe this.

His gay bf said...you are cute and if he had one afternoon with you with 1k...you have real potential..a thin silhouette body with nice books which makes you easy to dress...but you need high shoes definitley

books=boob. he also likes your hair and legs and nails.

he said: when we meet you have to introduce me to her!!

i already know what hairdress she needs !!! And he likes my teeth too. wtf?

Tiggy..

Tiggy looked like she was really gunna die today, I feel it everywhere I touch on her. she had a panic attack after we changed her bandaid. Her eyes look spooked out.
I only knew her for 3 months but this month is the time she's going to past away. I know chris's family saved her from abuse guy, gave her love and care. She's a trooper and so old. :(

Yuckyy.

Omg. I just heard Peppy scratching at the door, She always wants in our room everyday. Sometimes she even sleeps on the bed with us. She likes to hide underneath the blanket too and Love bite our noses. It hurts.
The weather today is yucky, Yesterday was nice out. this sucks and My Bebe and I gotta go outside to get some breaky stuff for dinner and mail off a clear bag to Mary Lou. she send my blanket in it.
Aaron is here now. Maybe I'll go see what he's up to and make myself a Strawberry jam sandwhich. ;D

Adventures with Chris and Ermin.

So we met up with Ermin today, around our area and first we walked to the duck pond, It's still half frozen, so they wanted to show me another street. and we ended up walking a little bit. Chris wanted to show me the river. We made a little vlog there. after a few mins, we decided to leave and Chris had to go to the bathroom, so he ran ahead while we met him under the bridge and sat on the rocks. A few mins when he got back, a Cop car stopped and I said. something like. oh shit, they're going to talk to us. The Cop got out of his car and said. Hey, Whatcha guys doing? we answered just sitting here, taking a break basically. he said Just having Timmies? Oh. that's cool. and we said yea.
After that we walked to Harveys, My first time trying it. and it was good. I felt shaken by the time I got there. my body does that sometimes. Ermin saw my Dragonfly Tattoo and said I must be gay, I didn't know you had a tattoo. Lol funny.
We had lots of fun and good conv! :)
Oh another random comment: Each day on facebook I think I am going to put an animal sound. Yesterday it started as Ooo Ooo, Aaa Aaa. Today's is Rawrrr. <3 and Quack on my second account.
My B Sister and Jason P commented on it. Jason P said meow first and then second my B Sister puts Meeeeeeoooooow =^.^=  . Yay, haha. They're cool. ;p

Yesterday.

We bused to the St.Laurent and we got to see the bunnies again, although they don't really wanna be petted. Also saw some new puppies.
I got the Mac eyeshadow I wanted, It's called Expensive Pink (It's gold and has more pink to it) Then the one called Glem.
We save 3$ on Laz and 50 cents on Frozen cake at Metro.
My Love had bad smelling hair, So he sprayed some febreze in it when we're laying down. ;P

Payday & Some stress

My bebe and I walked to the mall and back. took about 20 mins each way, It was a nice day outside. I am proud of myself. I do more walking here. We went to the pet store, which is usually cool. but the Bunnies weren't wanting to see us. No kitties or turtles. We still saw the big beard dragon, poor thing. It's in a small cage. :(
I got a fushia pink tee saying at Garage. it says You fill my heart with sunshine with a baby Pink sun behind the letters and a free graphic tank for free. or I couldn't gotten another graphic tee but I had the one I would've gotten. lol and I didn't want a plain tee.
I got gray shorts at Josuha Perets, Same material and shade as the comfy pants I got there, but in the Girls section this time. haha! :)
my buns are gunna look hawt. While I was in the changing room there, trying on a top before the shorts. I broken my tiny gold diamond heart necklace that my Yuve got me. luckily it will be fixed on the 13th of April.
He put holes in the dollarama bag while we're walking home, so he could see out of it, like a mask and 2 guys looked at him. it was funny.
Then his Mom was going off about Bills and she was being a bit unfair becuz they have a 300$ habit each month plus his Dad drinks Coke at least 2 times a day, a 2 liter one.
Plus, Tiggy is probably going to be dieing anyday now. But she's old and is in alot of pain. still is a happy trooper though.
I hope I can go back to the mall and get a Mac eyeshadow and get a new back for my old butterfly diamond studs. this is the 2nd time i am getting a new one, because the last one didn't work.
Anyways, I'll write in here soon. Bye.

Grrr.

How would you like it if everybody you almost meet tell you how to do something, what not to do, how to live your life, etc.
it's really annoying. I hate having so many problems.
who cares if hair is dead cells, I still want longer hair, So I will take the vitamins. Do I tell you what to do with your money?
Just a few mins ago, I felt I had to go play fisbee and we were walking, I throw a garbage can and Chris and Little Brandon got in my face about it and I was thinking what's the big deal?
So I walked away and didnt talk to Chris. They can think I am a whimp or whatever..
Lately, I've been feeling lost. ;(

Health issues

Well.. Soon I'll be having another camera down my throat to check out my tummy again :/ And hopefully they find out what's wrong. I will be surpise if something isn't up.
I have a new guy doctor and he is way better than my old girl doctor. He knows what my acne is and gave me the acne cream for it. We'll see if it works 100% in a month or two. so far, so good. :)